What would your exes say about you? Well, my mother wouldn’t want to read this. But if you asked my girlfriends, they would tell you: “That boy loves to eat pussy.” And I am damn good at it. Aside from that skill, Adam, will history remember you? I didn’t want to live and die invisible, and I’m not going to. I will have mattered to people. At 7 years old, I’d stand in front of the mirror with a tennis racket and sing “Can’t Buy Me Love.” It’s a one-in-a-billion life. But I don’t always like being me. There are other parts of this life my 7-year-old self wouldn’t be thrilled with. Like what? I’m 43, single and I sit at home a lot. [Laughs.] That’s not what I was supposed to accomplish in being a rock star. I wasn’t supposed to fuck this up quite so badly. And that annoys the shit out of people, the fact that I’ve done such a lousy job of being a rock star. It frustrates, angers and disgusts people. I can’t blame them: It is a dream come true, so what the fuck am I complaining about? Why are you sitting home so much? I don’t relate to people very well. It’s an area of my life where I’m immature, in the sense that I haven’t had a lot of experience. I don’t date very much. Your apartment is pretty immature. It looks like Pee-Wee’s Playhouse. I’m a whimsical guy. I don’t have any outdoor space, and I wanted some, so I put down AstroTurf and bought beach furniture. And a picnic table. What are you like when you’re drunk? I’m occasionally mute: I had a date once where I could not think of anything to say for an hour. I sat there in my mind, going, Say something. It was a party, and I was holding a balloon. I must’ve looked like a 6-year-old.
If we drug-tested you, what would we find? An absolute fruit salad of medication. Maybe they’re listening to your music. I thought my music would fucking bum people out, but they’re always telling me it helps them through times of trouble. And I think, God, that’s so damn depressing.
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